Justified

I haven't posted in a while but I've been adjusting my routine and with the start of school and the need for organized procrastination, I'm sure that will probably change...probably.

I swear I need some meds or something, you'd swear with all my mood swings. WTF is wrong with me?...lol

But anyhoo...

So I am ashamed but will admit that I have read a book or two on gay dating. Sad but true. I have recently come to enjoy the value of reading books, so now I pick up a book about any and everything.

But back to gay dating. I find it funny that as much as I have read about the start of relationships and how to do it, I still can not find myself to gather enough courage to just go talk to a guy. But I have a very good excuse...I think...the books do talk about our "excuses"...

I'm usually attracted...always...only attracted to more masculine guys...what percentage is actually gay....1.2. So my ODDS are in my favor to not say anything and hope I get something off a sly look.

See...justified...

Besides...I keep trying to convince myself not only will it happen when it's meant to happen, but I am not in the state to date right now...

I have so much time invested in work and school that I simply can not and should not spread myself any more thin...

See...justified....

sad.